This time a year ago was the day I spent the entire 24 hours in labour. I have been thinking about it all day - remembering exactly where I was at each point in the day. I think I started that day at around 5.30am being examined and told I was 3cm dilated. From 6am I was on the birthing ball. After 9am I was re-examined and we were told baby could be breach and I'd need to have my waters broken in a 'controlled manner' so was taken by ambulance in agony to the hospital in Shrewsbury with husband following behind in our car at break-neck speed.
At 11am my waters were broken and I was put on a syntocin drip. At 2pm I had pethidine, by 3.30 pm the epidural was sited, by 7pm the notes say we were 'dozing' which I dispute!! By about this time we were getting ready for me to be examined again. I started pushing and was told I had one hour at 11.30pm. Elizabeth was born at 1.01am on 23rd, so by the time I wake up tomorrow morning, on her actual birthday, it would all have been over. I remember that I was lying in bed on the ward sobbing, being told by a midwife to get up and walk when I clearly couldn't though!
I've just made her cake having made her card yesterday, and have just assembled her presents in our room ready for the opening ceremony tomorrow morning. I feel like a bag of nerves and can't put my finger on why. We're meeting Lorna in Shrewsbury tomorrow - feels odd to be going back there, but should be good in several ways. Hope I sleep tonight!
Elizabeth had her injections today. It was different to last time, when she was 3 months old. Then she just screamed. This time she was sitting up, looking at the nurse and smiling, then when the needle went in her lip curled under, and she crumpled into me sobbing, she looked so upset! It was really difficult to try to reassure her - she seemed devastated.
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