bad news...

Only days ago I was commenting to a friend that 'you never know what is around the corner' and sure enough, a new corner was turned yesterday. Lloyds TSB have taken over HBOS, husband's employer, and it looks like 40,000 employees will lose their jobs. Oh God. Perhaps we shouldn't buy the new sofas at the weekend. Feel incredibly stressed about it actually, although there is nothing concrete to worry about at the moment. Just generalised anxiety about the fact that his job is unsafe. Our whole world would be turned upside down, I don't know how we'd cope.

My job goes from bad to worse. My classes at the women's college have been cancelled leaving me three hours short on my timetable, so I have been assigned a tutor group and a key skills class. I'm really worried about what that means, as I'll effectively only be teaching 1.5 hours of Psychology, and will that mean that after my maternity leave I have no right to return to psychology teaching? Fired off an email to my line manager yesterday stating that the decision doesn't make sense as the poxy VT is teaching AS and A2, and was told to discuss it on Friday rather than send emails back and forth. Great.

Yoga was good though - really enjoyed it. It was the first time I'd missed Elizabeth's bedtime, and she had her tea and settled down fine. I felt incredibly relaxed, and it wasn't too strenuous at all - I was reassured that the woman knew all about SPD and was being very cautious about me not overdoing it.

Went out with Mummy friends last night for a drink - and was struck by however much we do or don't work we still carry the full responsibility for everything child-related, and all the guilt. Swimming today - all fine. Shattered. Nice sunny day though.